Excerpts from my Personal Journal

May this journal prove to be an aid me in my search for God. 5/12/51

May 11, 1951

Today was a day, which I shall not soon forget for God, made Himself so definitely real. In prayer at 11:10 with Martin Case, God came down in His glory to refill my soul. Such power as there was made manifest. Praise His name.

The afternoon, as usual proved to be hard. My mind kept turning away from heaven and to the things of the earth. When I went to town for dinner in the evening my mind left heaven. When I was finally able to turn my mind back it brought such sweet peace. Last night Charles Kennedy expressed his vision of a deeper life.

May 21 Monday

I had lots of studying to do, slack devotions and a heavy mind. Today was the worse day that I have had since I began the practice. By God’s grace I am going to do better tomorrow.

He is always a very present help in time of need, a refuge in the time of trouble, a rock in a weary land. I still am going on. He will understand and say well done.

July 4

Mary, Miss Fees and I had a wonderful time over at Danville. Somehow all the morning I had such a burden that I didn’t even know what it was for. But I trust the Lord will answer those prayers, which I uttered for it. The only thing I know it could have been was for the solider that was visiting Ester Colson. We had a good time in prophecy class. Mary and I got to have a couple of good long talks about the Lord. O God help me to go deeper into thee.

January 3, 1952

My devotions this morning were hard. Prayer was almost impossible. My mind wondered. I don’t know whether it was Satanic or originated in myself over the problems of Betty in my mind.

Fast prayer meeting was unusually good today except for a few people that preached instead of prayed to the Lord.

At 9:25 I had a date with Betty. She’s more and more wonderful everyday. But I have even gotten afraid when I talk to her.

God, please give me patience to wait on this.

(Journals from 1952 to 1960 have been lost.)